The Epilogue of Years After...
My dear angel,
I was not worthy of your love.
I've hurt you and we both know the damage that this has taken on our lives. I never realized the gravity of my actions until it was all over. When nothing can be undone anymore. You were the biggest mistake of my life.
Nightmares haunt my every day. Dreams are elusive. I was trying to find solace in the dark. In my times of being alone, I couldn't find another star that shines so bright. I was totally wrong and out of line. I became possessed by the greed that showed itself on those times. I was alone and you were the only one that I could name my company. It must have been very affective on me to realize that things weren't going my way, and when it didn't, the wrath awakened turned on you, my love. You who I thought I wouldn't lose.
In a girl's eyes and senses, I became evil impersonate and I know it.
And so I dedicated my life trying to fight what I've become. I tried vindicating myself. But the good that I tried to radiate could just not suffice the wrongs I've done to you. I've given up hope instead and tried to embrace the darkness. And it that darkness, I've learned to see that even in the blackest of nights, a tiny light will reveal itself as shiny as a sun.
I know we had promises and I also know that they became meaningless to you, dismissed as a vow said under a judassic illusion. For a moment, I held on to them, as they were giving me hope. I used to train myself into thinking that someday, you will ask me back.
Until I learned to let go. Or at least I tried to. You are not in my arms anymore and you don't long to be, giving yourself and your vows to someone else. That, I've learned to let go too. I began accepting the fact that an angel, will never be a match, for a demon.
The blackness of my spirit and the pureness of your tainted white soul is like a shattered mirror, never to be put together again. But at the back of my mind, I'm still hoping to be saved from this evilness that engulfed my anti-soul. I just don't know how.
Nevertheless, I loved you and maybe will always do.
I hope that forgiveness and redemption is not too distant,
Your devil
I was not worthy of your love.
I've hurt you and we both know the damage that this has taken on our lives. I never realized the gravity of my actions until it was all over. When nothing can be undone anymore. You were the biggest mistake of my life.
Nightmares haunt my every day. Dreams are elusive. I was trying to find solace in the dark. In my times of being alone, I couldn't find another star that shines so bright. I was totally wrong and out of line. I became possessed by the greed that showed itself on those times. I was alone and you were the only one that I could name my company. It must have been very affective on me to realize that things weren't going my way, and when it didn't, the wrath awakened turned on you, my love. You who I thought I wouldn't lose.
In a girl's eyes and senses, I became evil impersonate and I know it.
And so I dedicated my life trying to fight what I've become. I tried vindicating myself. But the good that I tried to radiate could just not suffice the wrongs I've done to you. I've given up hope instead and tried to embrace the darkness. And it that darkness, I've learned to see that even in the blackest of nights, a tiny light will reveal itself as shiny as a sun.
I know we had promises and I also know that they became meaningless to you, dismissed as a vow said under a judassic illusion. For a moment, I held on to them, as they were giving me hope. I used to train myself into thinking that someday, you will ask me back.
Until I learned to let go. Or at least I tried to. You are not in my arms anymore and you don't long to be, giving yourself and your vows to someone else. That, I've learned to let go too. I began accepting the fact that an angel, will never be a match, for a demon.
The blackness of my spirit and the pureness of your tainted white soul is like a shattered mirror, never to be put together again. But at the back of my mind, I'm still hoping to be saved from this evilness that engulfed my anti-soul. I just don't know how.
Nevertheless, I loved you and maybe will always do.
I hope that forgiveness and redemption is not too distant,
Your devil
posted by Loveletters For An Angel | 6:48 PM
